im scared to move

gotta be outta of this house by May 19, day after prom too. sigh. hmm dont know where we're staying at first. maybe alhambra? or san gabriel? *shrugs*

gotta pack today cuz im going up to sacramento. maybe i'll see sunny up there ^^ and can hang out together.

i hate senior year. everything sucks. i hate college. it makes me confused.

i had a nightmare last night too. scared the shit out of me. i had to call ppl for comfort =]

anyways...bye my xanga

bleh walked home today. it was so hot...got a headache. mom didnt take me to pick up the pictures and she's gonna be busy the rest of the week. how am i gonna get my pictures? gotta ask my dad i guess. dammit. i hate this week. i know i have hw to do but i can't think of what at the moment...whatever....wellp time to wash dishes

bye for now

dear online blog,

god...everything's a disaster. one thing falls apart after another....again and again. just when i think i can be happy....HA! anyways...today was the play that we had to do for english. what a nightmare. we were sooo unprepared. the improvising was terrible...but we made it though. that was all i cared about at that point. my senior quest final draft was due today but guess what? i only have one page and two lines done. and you know what? i got an F on my rough draft. so much for regular english class being a piece of cake. i was so used to all these complicated sentence structures and vocab and making every all complex that i dont kno how to make my work simple anymore...well simple to the point where it's good and not just a load of crap. mr. castillo is so hard to please. i can never expect how he's going to react to my work. im at the border line of a C...balancing on the edge of an 80%. talk about it being easy to lose points. my clay project is a nightmare...its only 22 inches high and it has to be 38 by thursday....and i only go about 2 coils a day? fucking shit. physiology...where do i start. oh wait i take that back. GOVERNMENT where do i start? i hate that class. i can never retain any information and what i hate the most is that i dont even try in that class anymore. i really should but i feel so lost already. i dont even kno where to BEGIN to catch up on anything. dont you kno that feeling? where you're so confused that you want help but it feels like it's too late to get any? and when you think about getting help, you think about what the person who is helping you is thinking? like...why dont you get this? or why did you wait the last minute? sigh i dont know. i feel like i just wanna get away...from everything...or go backward...or skip a few steps. it's beginning to be all so overwhelming. my sanity is being strained. i feel like anything can tick me off and i'll just explode and yell at them...and they [who ever that is] wouldnt deserve that. i need a breather.

hmm back to the world of xanga?

yes! tonight i'm going to six flags with my gfeelicious and company =] TATSU HERE I COME! >=] *cackles with glee* there's so much to do. i need to finish my csu apps and all that other college scary junk. eeeeeeeek!  i always have what i plan to say when i come on here...but once i start typing...i have nothing. oh well

remember kevin . . .

that time you and tuan made those tacos for acadeca? i never got to one.

and that ONE time i was at your house for the video project...i had to use your bathroom. i didnt kno how to flush!  it took me forever and got me soooo confused. i was like...do you pull it? or push it? it pushes funny! omg what am i going to do? i can't just leave it and ask for help! how embarassing.  but FINALLY  i managed to work it and got the hell out of there. when i told you, you laughed and said "yeah it is kind of weird."